Change Me

For so long I wanted to become whole, but not realizing the pride that would come in my strength. To be honest, the contrite heart of a broken sinner is more acceptable to God then the proud heart of the self-sufficient. First,the posterior of our hearts is of higher value to God, I've always known this but I never knew that relying on my own strength would cause my heart to become so hardened. That It would steal the very identity of who God created me to be. I realize how unworthy I am to do God's work because I realize how unloving I am. The first sign of pain or embarrassment and I retreat inside myself, I withhold my love. God is saying it's time to learn how to love again. God is asking me to create love where it is absent, to bridge the gaps and boundaries I have put between myself, God , and others. God created man with a capacity for relationship and called it good. I will die if I don't change, I need God to change me.