Religion Law?

  In Romans 6:6 " For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body of sin might be done away with that we should no longer be slaves  to sin-- because anyone who as died is free from sin.

Aren't I lovely ?

It is said that in different cultures a little girls would dress up in front of their fathers in a long flowing dress , the prettiest dress she could find, and she would spin. As she was spinning she turns to her father and says .. daddy aren't i lovely? Am i lovely daddy?

 That is the question that modern women ask themselves and are born with that longing, to feel lovely. Whatever the voice is that answers back she carries with her. From very early in life the message she is sent she keeps. Somewhere in between life, and all the things that can go wrong, she stops spinning. She doesn't think she is lovely anymore, maybe she has forgotten, or maybe she never knew. Is there a way to get her to understand, that even if she fell down, even if she tore her dress, that she is lovely no matter what, in the eyes of her father? The world takes every opportunity it can to rip that truth away from her. It preys of that innocence.

Little boys grow up asking, " Am i good enough?" Am i  enough? Do I have what it takes to be a man? It is a struggle for confidence. 

It is in asking these questions that we sometimes leave the door open for a lie. Will someone please answer these questions with the right answer? So that we don't have to ask anymore. We are lost in places we don't belong trying to find the answer.

Rise like a Rose from the Graveyard

We are thinking and feeling beings, cultures suffocates that truth and tells us an ugly lie. Do not run from who you are. Do not kill the conscience, the intuition, the honesty, and sensitivity that is reflective of humanness. These things reveal to us who we are and our purpose, and once we lose that .. we lose the meaning of being alive.

Waking up to Worth

There is something to be said about the journey to self-worth. Every woman must travel there is she wants to become whole. Unfortunately there are many things that can get in the way. Through the years of singleness she searches, hiding behind the makeup, the clothes, and the guys that she can attract. Or maybe it's the relationship that she is in. She dissolves into it because she is defined by it. Too scared to become separate, because if she left how would she define herself? She can only find her worth in that relationship. Without these distractions that she fills her life with she would be hollow.  Away from the the noise of her busy life, or the party life, whatever it is that that fills the silence, she is anxious. She is afraid to be alone in the quite  because if she is, she can hear the sound of her restless heart. At the end of the day there is still a void that none of these things can fill. It isn't until she hits rock bottom, it isn't until she collapses in exhaustion, that she will find herself at the foot of the cross. Then she looks up, in adoration because she finally understands what love is.  It was never in any of the worldly things she sought them in. I pray that women would wake up to their worth, that God would show them what they're really looking for is true love. That is something that only be learned first through God, then experience through others. Only then through a real love can a woman become whole and know her true worth.  

" No man on earth can convince a woman of her dignity, she must know it for herself first." - Jason Everett

He likes me, He likes me still

 

He likes me, He likes me not. He likes me, He likes me still.  

When I went to a bible study during the blackout there were people who prayed over me. There were two vision they had from God. One was a pink rose and me picking the petals off saying .. he likes me, he likes me not, he likes me, he likes me not. One of the prayer leaders said that sometimes i don't think God even likes me, that sometimes  I believe that God likes me only when i do Good. He told me that God likes me all the time, so  the truth really is ... God likes me, and he likes  me still. The second vision was a diamond, and a lightening bolt coming down and striking it, he said no matter which way you strike a diamond, no matter which way you look at it, it is still beautiful. It's so amazing how God sheds like on our uncertainties where we most need him to. God wants his women to know that they are beautiful and loved, but many of us struggle with this! I am so thankful that God addressed that issue, because i've wrestled with it.  Now i sure do feel loved, there is no guessing about God's love, it is certain, strong, and constant no matter what we do. A little girl picks flowers guessing and wondering  if a boy loves her or not, but a women who has a deep relationship with God does not focus on the world or wonder in anxiety because God's love is enough, and it never keeps her guessing.

The Gift of Speech

Last night the power was out in all of SD county. I was planning to go to  a church event which was almost an hour away with a friend. I felt defeated in my efforts, we canceled the trip because the outage created so much traffic. It ended up still being a great night. I went to a bible study with my friend, there was music and everyone was sharing stories. There was a guy in a wheelchair who had a speech problem. When he would speak it looked like he had to exert so much energy to muster even a sentence.His message was so sweet, simple, and honest. He was talking about how in conversations it's on us to communicate or not communicate, it's a choice that can act like a chain. He said he gets scared sometimes to bring up issues, because the conversation could not go in favor if he does. Those relationships that he cherishs he hesitates more to communicate. Although the man in the wheelchair had a serious speech problem, he still sees the importance of it, he still struggles to speak up too and realizes how fear is paralyzing. The choice to communicate should not be taken for granted, we should use it, because some people in the world do not even have the gift of speech.

From the Bottom up

Why do insensitive people come into my life like leeches and try to suck the life out of me? When you already struggling to accomplish something difficult, they come to kick you down when you are at your weakest. And sometimes the people who bring us down the most are the ones who are the closest to us.  

I'm not giving up, no matter how hard ppl try to push me.