Two Worlds Collide

So today i was reading another Christian girl's blog as i've been trying to get perspective in preparation for my speech coming up at the end of the month. I was concerned and offended.There's a problem when we think  we are perfectly pious or entirely strong. The problem with someone who thinks  they are pious  because they've achieved moral perfection is they can say things that lack perspective or understanding . Although a pious christian may be well disciplined and have knowledge on how to live christian and avoid sin,  black and white perspective stops people from moving forward.  It can lead people to feel overly convicted and less understood. In that sense, pride of one's own  righteousness can profoundly effect others. It can determine whether or not we draw people to Christ or turn them away. We need believers who can step into the struggle of others, be transparent, and empathize. I almost gave up on church because i felt like a black sheep who didn't belong on either side of life. I didn't belong at the bar, but I didn't  feel content staying in every Friday night reading my bible. In the light of a Christian setting i still had many struggles in my faith. I felt so isolated in my struggle and when i tried to reach for help no one seemed to have advice that helped me, no one really understood me. I kept running back to my old lifestyle because I felt like I didn't belong. I felt like there was no other way of life that fit me and my personality. I just felt like a stuck sinner.  I think it is important to be sensitive to where people are at spiritually. Because God doesn't give us everything all a once, he slowly Woos us toward him. Then the closer we get the more we are naturally able to digest those harder truths about what it means to live for God.  I think in my younger years God allowed me to go through some things so I would not become like this.  Falling in love with God should be our motivation for moral striving not our need to feel " good" or to feel "approved".  Your Christian faith should not be a platform for your self-esteem. Piety should not make us feel more valued or like we have more status, but rather  display self-respect and self-love, or a form of sacrificial love to God. But hey who said human nature didn't exist among Christians themselves? Phil 2:3-4 (TEB) Don't do anything from selfish ambition, or from a cheap desire to boast; but be humble towards each other, never thinking you are better than others. And the bible commands us to do everything we do out of LOVE , not because someone is watching us,to be labled  as a "solid christian",  or because we feel like we have to play a role. Faith needs genuineness. I recently found a new church that i have been  going to for a month.and i've never felt so loved and so accepted for who I really am. I am so grateful I don't have words. This church has touched my heart in a very special way. It is proof that God provides  for our needs, that I have another option and i don't need to be stuck in my old life. We lay it all on the table .. our concerns, our burdens, our fears.  Because of the authenticity and the vulnerability of the people in our church....  true healing and true growth is happening in all of our lives. It's such a beautiful thing to witness. I think my heart expands an inch everyday because of this church. AND we have so much fun together. It means the end of loneliness for alot of us..

I know the girl who wrote  the blog entry meant well, but it just seemed like she was stuck in her little christian bubble striving for moral perfection, but then again we all play a different role in the body of Christ..  I really want to touch past the bubble and reach out to the world, because it is suffering and it's broken. I can hear the voices of my non-Christians friends, and stories of where their innocence was lost, and when they figured out that the world is cruel. The kind of healing they need can be found in God.  I want to reach those people the most. Maybe I'm just an intermediary because i know what the darkness is like and the light.  Our hearts are all a little calloused .. sinner and saint alike, we are all in need of healing from the human condition. It's amazing how the closer we grow to God how rapidly he tears through the layers covering our hearts to mine the gold out of us.  There is good in everyone and with the help of God we can be more forgiving, compassionate and love hard without fear those around us.So that is how two worlds collide, because the love of God shatters the boundaries between the worlds of the sinners and saints. And if you really know who God is , your life should mimic the same.